As Joggers Pass by the Cedar-Sided House in the Woods…

Working with my cadre of computer coders to gather data from (i.e., infiltrate) the apps most commonly downloaded by the hapless, in order to prepare a future of inexactitude.

The Chinese and [some] African national leaders say they are preparing a future that corrects the mistakes of Western foreign policies of the past.

Former enemies, the Brits and the Spaniards, approach a nearterm future of recessionary policy correction.

How long can we continue to suffer the pains of governments shrinking their influence upon the economy until the next breakthrough occurs?

Do we reword our headlines to say high unemployment rates are the goals we are achieving?

How do we prove to the restless youth that we’re encouraging them to think for themselves, outside the cereal box of toys and teeth-rotting sugary substances that drain their futures?

You are challenged to create the future in your own image.

You don’t have to depend on mass media portrayals of backyard BBQs, retirement accounts, jogging baby strollers and mobile phone technology implants because you need to communicate your thoughts before you think them.

Rushing into the future is no rush.  The highs get duller and duller.

Crime is a matter of perspective.

As joggers pass by the cedar-sided house in the woods, they burn energy, converting their sets of states of energy into portable heaters.

That’s the future you want to concentrate on.

The one that matters most.

After all, what distinguishes a natural-born member of our species from a cybernetic simulation?

Is it the jogger, the cedar siding, the house, or the woods?

A question posed 1000 years from now on a celestial body far from Earth.

That’s your future we derived from your app data.

Deal with it.

Parting Shots – “Gone crazy. Back soon.”

A CIA employee quit to become a bishop.  Now all his files are marked “Sacred” and “Top Sacred.” — The American Legion magazine, May 2012

Reminds me of an insight that occurs and re-occurs in me with occasional irregularity.

Do you ever wonder why people and organisations make and keep secrets?

Well, for starters, if they fail at a secret task, only those in on the know will know what they know about what failed and why it failed.

In addition, they can [somewhat] control the perception of the failure.

That’s why I operate on a species-level scale.  I want our failures out in the open as much as possible so we can learn from our mistakes and get out of the perception-is-reality business.

To be sure, we’re an unusual species, in that our disguises are meant for each other as well as for predators/prey.

But many species play bluffing games with each other, having larger antlers, bigger nests, brighter plumage and flashier courting rituals.

We are, supposedly, smarter than all that.

We can — again, supposedly — see through our limited attempts of increasing our chances for reproduction and resource access.

Supposedly.

That’s the key word here, isn’t it?

Perhaps I put too much thought into our abilities to rise above our past.

We all make mistakes.  Me, especially.

Mine, as thinker, writer, and tinkerer, are here as much as possible for you to peruse and ponder in making decisions about yourself and ourselves together as one superset of states of energy (i.e., one species).

Enough pondering. pompous pontification for today.  Time for action.

iPad Motion Sickness Syndrome

I have friends who’ve achieved and accomplished their whole lives.

Here, on the 11th of April, while I look out the window at the jungle of a yard that keeps my house cool in the summer, my friends’ stories stand out in my thoughts.

Meanwhile, my sister and I (with help from my wife and mother) assemble a set of notes and medical reports to give to medical experts to help understand where we can go to get a firm (or as close to firm) diagnosis for my father’s medical predicament(s).

The tree leaves and limbs do what they do best when breezes pass over the undergrowth, grabbing my attention as joggers and walkers avoid speeding cars on the road ahead.

Disco light dances across the window screen and onto the end table holding up a power strip, grow lamp, computer monitor, scented oil lamp, 3Com modem cable, incense bowl, light timer and a book a friend gave me titled “It’s a Young World After All.”

I am open to hearing and reading about alternative views concerning the history of our species.

I am willing to accept my friends’ opinions about their achievements and accomplishments.

I do not fret about belief systems in the majority or the minority and how they may or may not sway the thought sets of people both young and old like the wind shapes the forest around me.

There aren’t as many seedpods on the redbud outside the window as there were last year.

There are thousands of people who buy handguns and rifles every year and will never use them, storing them for a collection or trading them for something that looks more useful than the ones they first bought.

It is part of our global cultural interaction that drives some to buy weapons for self-protection on an active, daily basis.

There are those who travel great distances to provide basic medical care and deliver simple foodstuff in order to raise the standard of living in regions of the world not well-connected to local/regional caring social networks.

And then there are the few who seek membership in the Galactic Exploration Society.

In this moment, when the actions of others — friends, family, acquaintances, and instantly formed/lost friendships — find spaces in my thoughts, I look around the room of my study/meditation zone and wonder how/if happiness is contagious.

Some days I pursue the wrong activities.

My father is a man of action more than contemplation.

I have always been more of a man of contemplation rather than action.

From my father’s U.S. Army days in Germany during the Cold War to his most recent days of teaching students at ETSU as an adjunct professor, he found happiness in social engagement.

I find happiness in analysing interesting data more than in stressing pre-arthritic joints while swinging a scythe.

Both of us are products of the influences of ancestors, peers, descendants, and commercial interests.

My father grew up to put country first.

I grew up to put planetary exploration first.

The influences upon him influenced me.

The same goes for the achievements and accomplishments of my friends.

The Sun heats the planet and air pressure changes create wind which passes through the forest, influencing my thoughts and the thoughts of people passing in front of my yard.

Staring at an iPad, my head bent down while my finger slides news articles across the screen, like the scenes around me flashing past when I’d hold on to the rails of a merry-go-round during recess in elementary school, causes motion sickness.

While telling the tale of our species from a long perspective, how do I incorporate the images above into one where we’re looking at our achievements and accomplishments that’ve put people on the Moon and cybernetic explorers on millennial-long journeys?

It’s not the brain of Stephen Hawking that I want to preserve — it’s his thought patterns that are interwoven with the society around him I want to perpetuate, ensuring that they continue to evolve unabated by the physical presence of a brain or a body bound to a wheelchair.

My father, however, is a different story.  His physical AND mental presence are both key parts of what he means to me and my desire to push our species beyond primal tendencies to create dystopian nightmares where survivalist weapon hoarding is considered normal behaviour.

It’s also more than that but I’ve allowed myself to become a mortal human, subject to daily interruptions of bigger dreams, distracted from the plan set in motion by a group of people I’ve spun into a literary device called the Committee to capture the attention of those prone to primal thought patterns so that we can achieve a goal 13,904 days from now with all 7+ billion of us fully involved as sets of states of energy in the visible part of the universe with which we’re most familiar.

Are hopes and dreams intimately tied to happiness?

Perhaps.

How much does the passing of a single redbud leaf in front of the window have to do with dust devils on Mars?

Do you understand the immense distance between our planet and any celestial body with potential compatible communicable sets of states of energy that would interest us more than as laboratory experiments?

A lesson I learned one summer during sales training week for Southwestern Book Company decades ago still applies today:

The story concerns twin boys of five or six. Worried that the boys had developed extreme personalities — one was a total pessimist, the other a total optimist — their parents took them to a psychiatrist.

First the psychiatrist treated the pessimist. Trying to brighten his outlook, the psychiatrist took him to a room piled to the ceiling with brand-new toys. But instead of yelping with delight, the little boy burst into tears. “What’s the matter?” the psychiatrist asked, baffled. “Don’t you want to play with any of the toys?” “Yes,” the little boy bawled, “but if I did I’d only break them.”

Next the psychiatrist treated the optimist. Trying to dampen his outlook, the psychiatrist took him to a room piled to the ceiling with horse manure. But instead of wrinkling his nose in disgust, the optimist emitted just the yelp of delight the psychiatrist had been hoping to hear from his brother, the pessimist. Then he clambered to the top of the pile, dropped to his knees, and began gleefully digging out scoop after scoop with his bare hands. “What do you think you’re doing?” the psychiatrist asked, just as baffled by the optimist as he had been by the pessimist. “With all this manure,” the little boy replied, beaming, “there must be a pony in here somewhere!”

That, my friends, is why we get up in the morning, making miracles every day.  No matter how much we may be distracted by the mundane, or even happy being perfectly anonymous, there’s always a chance that pony will appear out of nowhere and change our perspective.

In fact, I guarantee it will.

Look at me.  I never thought a tablet PC could cause motion sickness until today, which has completely changed my desire to write the Next Great App.

Lost in Allemagne

Whatever it may be, it is what it is.  I no longer have a mind, or semilogical thought set.

Where is the guy who can spin off cantankerous cacophonies of kaka like it’s nobody’s business?

A new list of names to add to the list of names of people to thank for being people.

Can I be too tired right now to name them?

Where is the amateur professional amateur when I need him to stand in my stead and mount the steed like an Android tablet that suddenly displays a need to find the mount drive named something like /mnt/, which amounts to mountains of rubble and gibberish rubbish to the noncomputersavvy.  Savvy?

Of course not.

My father is dying, dying, dying and I’m past the point of pain, pretending to pretend my father is there in some form of his old capacity while pretending in pretense, past tense, tension (the hyper kind), that he’s like a newborn child all over again, like adopting an autistic child with no clue which clues to the child’s nonclues indicates the child’s needs without pretending.

Is my father clueless or stubborn?  Is he ignoring or is he tired?

He never liked dwelling on discussions about his health, his PRIVATE health, with strangers.

But he loved talking.

Now he grunts, coughing out sounds we interpret as “yes” or “no” to the best of our ability until he indicates we were wrong.

He is weak, getting weaker, never the weakest this week.  Weebles wobble but they don’t fall down.

To have these moments with him in his time of indiscernable thought patterns.

To read much, little or nothing in his eyes, from when he chooses to look back with a blank stare.

Not even a smile.

Is it worth writing about the shriveled hands, the sunken cheeks and hollowed-out eye sockets?

When the family chooses to put in the feeding tube, the PEG line, these are the consequences we get to face.

It is up to me to serve as a warning to the rest of you — resist the temptation.

I don’t want the last memories of my father to be these moments of diminished capacity, well beyond the twilight zone of believability.

I believe I have no choice.

Suffer the insufferable.

Go with the flow.  It’s all relative — many have suffered worst fates with friends and family.

And yet, not so.

Time to revise my living will — there will be no PEG line for me, no stretching my life into wide-eyed stares with no productive, contributory communication to give back.

Let me die in strength.

Let me fight the good fight while I have the capacity to say no.

While I have the fingers to type or, at the very least, the ability to dictate via brain probes.

Something…anything but this.

I am beyond crying.

I am tired of being tired of being tired.

If my thoughts aren’t worth reading, plop me in a wheelchair and push me into the woods.

That’s the joy of having no children.

Let me feed wildlife with my set of states of energy in entropic flux.

Where labels have no meaning to an ecosystem designed to eat the weak and the dying in an effort to convert energy into the ebb and flow of species sets of states of energy in regenerative reproductive mode.

Auf wiedersehen, Vati!

How often should a nurse tell a patient, “I can be here 24 hours a day”?

Seven billion personalities wandering the space around Earth’s core, all of us with needs, wants, ideas, plans, hopes, sorrows…

In this mortal coil that resembles strands of DNA as much as anything else, meaning — possibly, probably — that life itself is life itself, we are who we are when we are where we are how we are, do we see or hear ourselves making impacts on those around us, changing the course of needs, wants, ideas, plans, hopes, and/or sorrows in the moment?

Our philosophies do not matter.

Life is entropy, order and chaos, sets of states of energy bumping into each other, sometimes self-consciously, seeking reproduction in various disguises, forms, performances, rituals, randomness…

How many days are left before this storyline picks up the tale of the invisible group mockingly, seriously, joyously, sadly called the Committee?

Are you prepared to meet the super genius behind the veiled enclosure where decisions are made in both individual/committee conscious intent and the general flow of the [sub/non/un]conscious crowded moment?

We are constantly influencing the moment, breathing in and out, exchanging atoms and molecules in the space around us, exchanging ideas/memes in the social network between us…

Beliefs, strengths and other words of ancient origin compete, no winners intended or implied.

So it is I am this skin-wrapped self, this temporary visage, passing through this time we share together, gathering ideas like a quilter gathers pieces of cloth, building a layer of warm comfort and pleasing design, traditional and contemporary at the same time.

We have but one moment in which to live, one moment to make a difference, and then the next moment arrives upon which the previous moment’s opportunities, missed or achieved, present options.

Showing my father a future in which he wants to live and improve his bodily conditions.

Working with professional medical workers to increase the strength of Dad’s support network.

Asking friends to vocalise their love and fondness of and for my father.

Remembering that every word, every phrase, every expressed thought, makes a world of difference in my father’s intensive therapy sessions and the down times in-between.

Ever the optimist, helping my father, a Life Member of the Optimist Club, recall his oft-cited recital of the Optimist Creed:

Promise Yourself …

  • To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
  • To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet.
  • To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.
  • To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
  • To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.
  • To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
  • To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
  • To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.
  • To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
  • To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

Exploring the Impossible, or Not Needing Permission to be Myself

As a leader, as a writer, as a thinker, as a tinkerer, I perform many roles, just like we all do.

The chameleon, the pleaser, the hater, the lover, the fearful, the fearless, the wonderer, the doer, the wanderer, the sitter, the sane, the psychopath, the peacenik, the warmonger, the nothing, the everything…

Conscious of who I am, sometimes conscious of who I’m trying to be when I’m not trying to be anything.

Aware that censorship is an integral part of who we are but also part of us we don’t need to nurture in every situation.

Perfectly imperfect.

We pick and choose our personality traits.

I love my subculture for what it gives people but it doesn’t give me everything I want, need, desire, pine for, resist, admire, or other cultural symbols we call words which represent ideas or meme sets.

For instance, there is the “Jenn,” a set of states of energy that morphs into meme sets we can call the dance instructor, sibling, student, Scentsy sales consultant and propulsion specialist, to name but a few.

When my wife and I are taking lessons and Jenn is instructing, an image pops into my head, something like this:

We may hide behind our costumes and masks but we can’t hide the fact we’re members of the same species, with all that entails.

It doesn’t matter if we live somewhere between Erie and Pittsburgh, PA, or on the roof of a stone hut in the middle of a metropolis.

In the latest incarnation of a consistent, coherent set of states of energy as “self,” I wonder if there is a correlation between the concept of being an adult and reacting to socially-approved news outlets yelling for my attention.

Is it more or less grownup to see that being an adult reacting to advert-driven corporations wanting my reaction and thus my focus on products/services that companies want to sell, spending some of their labour/investment credit to buy space next to information reportedly “fresh” and worth my moments analysing their value, both news and parallel product/service placement, is not in my best interest?

We can look together at the statement “without advertising, nothing happens,” and stir up dust from old volumes of thoughts, burning our eyes, drying our mouths and making us cough up informed opinions on the matter.

Or we can move on.

Not only is the universe infinite from our point of view but so are our opinions.  The more I look, the more I see that spending [any of] my time reacting to the output of news outlets, which, when I was a kid, was the only official source of information, is severely limiting my definition of self.

Sure, I can pretend to be sane in saying that I join others in the public square of ideas, shaping the dialogue, sharing the concept of being an adult/grownup leader of people who may or may not care what I have to say but must follow the rules I set forth for their participation in culture at large, despite (or in spite of) their subcultural beliefs.

Or I cannot.

Neither is this an either/or proposition.

I exist somewhere in-between.

Return to the example of Jenn.

Is she just a dance instructor?  No, of course not.  There is no such thing as “just a dance instructor” anywhere in this universe.  We are not one-purpose robots designed to physically represent a simple algorithm with one input, one calculation (or state change) and one output.

We are not a set of infinite states of energy, either.

We are all somewhere past 0, between 1 and ∞ (infinity).

Thus, it is time for me to move on past this blog to a place where I don’t have to appear sane; that is, no longer writing one symbol/word after another into a coherent string of symbols you interpret as phrases that fit into the structure of a sentence that, together with other sentence-like symbol sets, builds into paragraphs and wraps a bow around a new concept or idea per blog entry, sometimes in reaction to official news headlines, sometimes in reaction to other blogs, sometimes in reaction to and observation of sets of states of energy (birds, plants, raccoons) in the surrounding environment.

I want to pretend to be the happy, insane hermit in the woods, doing nothing practical or useful to the casual observer.

It is my right, giving permission to myself to step off the narrow path of life we designate as subcultural normality, an average I no longer want to perpetuate.

My happiness is not your happiness.

Pleasing others’ idea of self at the expense of being myself is no longer worth the cost.

The chameleon wants to take off his disguise, discard his mask, his costume and let himself go into the realm of the impossible, or at least stretch as far as he can to reach the event horizon and dissolve the self, merging with whatever is there that seems infinitely improbable, although mathematically computable and definitely not profitable.

At least for a little while, as long as I can perpetuate the belief in the self’s ability to nurture its social needs from within the universe of impossible ideas the self contains, including other selves that form a self-enclosed social structure, the perpetual motion machine of self-independence, leaving space for interface with other selves when the need for food, clothing, and shelter arises.

Just like the rest of us.

You Can Do “Crazy,” Too — Uninhabit Your Inhibitions

What stops you from being you?

Go ahead and spin thoughts around the concept of “you” as you — the imaginary person inside the body that is you, and not a set of states of energy that creates the concept of “you” in order to best perpetuate the set’s successful habit of perpetuating itself.

How many of you feel bullied by the subculture(s) in which you spend the majority of your waking hours?

Recently, local news organisations have focused on the detrimental effect of bullying on a minority of students who feel unempowered to assert their egos above the noise of activity that interferes with the alleged goal of primary/secondary education to create well-rounded, socially-productive adults.

What is bullying?

Wasn’t my complicit act with teachers to walk around bragging about being intellectually superiour to most of my fellow students a form of bullying to those who felt intimidated by intellectual snobbery?

It wasn’t just the guys and gals who had no creative outlets for their inferiority complexes and resorted to physical intimidation we could call bullies.

Or maybe that’s all it is:

Competition against our worst fears of being less than something we would be if we could be left alone to be ourselves without interference from those who are competing against their worst fears and acting out aggressively against us.

The thousands of people I met while surviving the ordeal of public education taught me at least one thing per person (other than name or body type) — their concepts of self in relation to society.

In other words, none of us are normal, unless you want to stick to the definition of normal as the least common denominator that smooths out the highs and lows of individual personalities, creating an average goo to which none of us wholly sticks.

A sticky issue, is it not?

Where is the hard line that separates bullying from people expressing their personalities by competing against their peers?

What is the difference between a slave and an indentured servant?

What is the difference between an indentured servant and a person who signs a contract to pay a significant portion of salary for 30 years on a home mortgage, plus one or more automobile loans, credit card debt, etc.? [Easy answer: bankruptcy proceedings]

Where does freedom start and when does freedom end?

We would all be labeled eccentric if we were the selves we think we are in contrast to the compromises we often make in daily life to be understood.

“Why can’t everyone just speak my language?”

“Why do I have to talk in simple ‘layman’s terms’ to be understood?”

“Why do I have to repeat myself?  It’s obvious what I just said!”

Yeah, the guy driving by in his truck, towing his fishing boat, has an image of a jig that’s different from the Irish singer and completely incomprehensible to a person without training in assigning concepts to symbols we associate with the “English language,” itself an amalgam of cultural symbol sets.

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Only you can prevent bullying, by not empowering the fears/insecurities of the person who wants to intimidate you through feeding on your fears/insecurities.  To paraphrase:

Starve the bully, feed your strengths.

I don’t know how many times a guy wanted to physically intimidate me because I represented the strengths of educational prowess he was denied in classrooms by teachers who rewarded intelligence, parents who hadn’t instilled good study habits, test-taking handicaps not addressed by peers/adults and the myriad ways that a person who doesn’t conform to a systematic approach to generalised education of individuals is inadvertently punished.

I learned to tell that guy if he wants to feel more powerful than me, then feel it.  No need to get into a physical brawl just to show he was still acting dumber than me by getting into trouble with school authorities.  Believe in his strengths and don’t listen to people who prey on his weaknesses to make themselves feel better.

The school age version of how to win friends and influence people.

For example, imagine being an atheist Boy Scout in a troop sponsored by a church that brags its method of social conformity is the only way, with the largest number of missionaries in the world — one may assert one’s lack of need to depend on an invisible omnipotent/omniscient being that controls one’s life and get ostracised by both the church and Boy Scout organisation, a form of bullying that is socially acceptable in many subcultures around the world; or one may focus on the important tasks at hand — tying knots, practicing first aid techniques, picking up trash on the side of the road, acquiring leadership skills, assisting during ecological disasters, and learning to recognise 100 bird species — don’t feed the bully hidden in the social construct.

Water on a duck’s back.

Sometimes, simply follow the path of least resistance in a situation when you want to get what you want, knowing you won’t convert anyone to your way of thinking, rather than reinforce a subculture’s resistance to your ideas and prevent either one of you from making progress.

Be the example of yourself to yourself first.

If others want to follow, they will.  No need to bully them into submission.

Intellectual superiourity is a myth propagated by those who miss the point we’re the best we can be in the moment, intellectual superiourity merely a comparison to moments that no longer exist.

Only you can be you, no matter how uninhibited you may appear to others.

Enough self-motivational chitchat for the day.

Time to enjoy the sunshine and later return to words/images/sounds spread across the Internet where we express our individuality in ways that are easily misunderstood by someone who has developed the habit of bad-mouthing us through years of exposure to bullying behaviour, instead of self actualisation skills.

Life!  It’s free!  You get what you pay for!

The Genius in the Bottle

Reading blogs galore, psycholanalysing the personalities behind the writing, seeing the education (formal and informal), imagining the lifelong social connections (both good and bad) and then returning here.

A few days ago I received my first senior discount at a restaurant, getting a whole meal for $4.99 at Buddy’s BBQ in Lenoir City, Tennessee, USA, thanks to the assistant manager, Jackie Moore.

I was a senior in secondary school in 1980, a senior at university in 2001 and finally, a senior in life in 2012.

I have graduated.

I retired from the office/travel work life in 2007.

What is next?

YAWN!

A global society full of literate writers and savvy readers.

Crows have left the front yard.  Now some small birds, their shadows blocking the Sun as they cross the window pane, search in earnest for morsels.

Bits.  Nibbles.  Bytes.  Atoms.  Molecules.  Complex carbohydrates.

On the days when I’m only here as a switchboard operator to connect geniuses with their viable markets by hyperlinking them together, what do I do with the bottles after the geniuses are released into our world?

Does the number of syllables matter in counting one’s capabilities?

Must a medical doctor mumble jargon to feel worthy of the diploma on a wall?

Must a chemist talk in chemical terminology to be understood?

Despite my senior status, I’m still that ten-year old boy whose girlfriend of three years just died of a blood disease the boy doesn’t know how to spell or pronounce because he heard it only once or twice in the midst of his sorrow.

I’ll always be that boy, but now his innocence is lost, he has many scars, he’s seen and experienced happenings of immense displeasure and disappointment about our species’ behaviour toward itself and its place in the universe.

He’s still a boy, jumping up out of chairs, flailing on the dance floor, hiking in the woods, turning over rocks to see what creepy-crawlies are hiding in the shade or tunneling into the cool, moist dirt underneath.

Adulthood has always been boring to him, people simply older, pretending to be wiser, taking charge of large groups of people as if they have special powers or capabilities or simply desire to lead.

The boy doesn’t see himself in the mirror like he used to.  There’s a white-haired, middle-aged man staring back at him now, youthfulness a memory, not a fact.

Sure, he could pay a cosmetic surgeon to create a false sense of security in turning back time by stretching skin or implanting prosthetics but the boy knows better than to feed the vanity of lost youth.

He is sad and happy at the same time.

Sad that his girlfriend never got to see life after age 10, sad that he didn’t get to see her reach maturity and become whatever she wanted and/or felt obligated to be.

Happy that she still exists in his memory, her parents long gone, her friends moving on and having kids of their own and some whose kids now have kids the same age as a ten-year young girl who died of something like leukemia.

Now that the boy is a senior in body if not completely in his thoughts, what’s next?

What’s left to discover that he hasn’t seen in one form or another all over again for the very first time?

He has no social obligations and just barely a sense of social responsibility.

He knows that if he thinks these thoughts and writes these words, billions of people have thought these words and many have written them, too, in thousands, if not billions, of symbolic forms.

He knows some will read these words and form their own interpretations, looking forward or looking backward along their thought trails, naturally comparing their lives to the one imagined here.

The boy looks at his email inbox and wonders why someone wants to sell penis enhancement drugs or the opportunity to become an anonymous ghost writer for someone else.

These aren’t the signposts of life the boy expected to see 40 years ago.

If these are the images his society wants to hold up to him as some sort of macabre mirror reflecting Life Writ Large, then the boy took a wrong turn somewhere.

What happened to his playground mates?  Why do we all look like we’re 50 years old or older (except those of us who’ve paid for body modification procedures or those who’ve lived relatively healthy lives that have slowed the aging process by comparison)?

This boy who wanders the world in wonder, adrift in thought, letting whatever synaptic/neuronic connections make their electrochemical pathways circulate through a central nervous system made from part of a set of states of energy, sees many of the influences upon his molecular makeup so he shouldn’t be surprised that he influences others, even if he doesn’t want people to follow his happenchance lifestyle, such as it is, has been or will be.

He is a child of the universe who stopped caring about himself at age 10, letting the adults around him tell him what he’s supposed to do so the boy could hide himself in a virtual shell, far from the pain of change of life without his constant school companion — his 10-year young girlfriend — a pain that turned to numbness and eventually ennui.

Just like everybody else, he assumes.

Time to shut down this blog and move on to the next one, a cowboy rolling up his gear and hitting the lonely trail once again, hidden in plain sight, kindly thanking the people who stopped by while he was here…

Gusset up the place

To be a part of the moment in which we are all a part of the moment…

To read reports written in opinionated manners that one has no interest in perpetuating, personally, but understanding that the flow of the river of life — especially the main channel — does not take into account individual water molecules electrically and/or chemically attracted to a deep pool off to the side…

Gravity a mystery and yet as obvious as a changing social form of the silent treatment, such as someone refusing to respond to emails or texts…

Accepting the fact that belief in one method of thought processing is primarily what we tend to do, who we tend to be…

A one-atom “transistor” — when we do create a subatomic version?  And what comes after that?

A poem, a short story, a nail, a truss — if all is humour to this author, except when everything is not, what is anything?

The word “supercomputer” will fade into another word after supercomputer becomes ubiquitous, commoditised, superfluous…

How many people are office workers, and of them, how many long for a viewbicle?

Are you rewriting language in your image, mashing up ideas into combined letters, words and phrases that only you can understand?

Or are you thinking more universally, writing for moments past, present and future?

While others, call them A-prime, perpetuate social constructs with which they feel most comfortable identifying themselves, I contemplate the social construct of me tied to A-prime with whom we live in our time here together and what it makes me, B-notB, if I am walking the path of the wanderer who lives inside and outside of time-based social constructs.

I am humbled that people who call themselves nonconforming individualists would want to link to me in modern online social circles but I have to be careful not to allow the part of me that is the chameleon personality to blend in with nonconforming social constructs (yes, the irony is obvious — “nonconforming” and “social” seem to contradict each other) that aren’t my own.

To compute trends that will not occur in my lifetime evokes, if not provokes, odd feelings.

To know the flow of social change is often slower than we perceive…sigh…

What of the person who thought thousands of years ago of another person walking the surface of our Moon?  And of the next person who wished to walk on the surface?  And the next one who dreamt of the method getting there?  And the one who wrote a plausible story about getting there?  The one who filmed a fantasy sequence of encounters on the surface? And finally the person who first stepped on our Moon’s surface?

Is computing the trends enough?  Do I have to experience them in the moment with everyone else to experience them in my thoughts?

And do I have to share them with you/us to make the trends happen or remain silent and let them happen without an iota of influence these words will have, spreading first into a network of nonconformers and out into the rest of our shared subcultures?

What if I hold the pebble in my hand and put it in my pocket instead of skipping it across the pond?

I once met a homeless person who said he regularly talked with God and that God had recently told him all people who declawed their animals, a desecration of God’s creatures, were doomed to hell.  I told a friend I consider a devout Christian this story and he told me that God gave us dominion over all of God’s creatures so he didn’t believe that the homeless person really had talked with God.

From the scenario, I discovered that we elevate ideas to the forefront of our thoughts to strengthen our social constructs.

The homeless person and my friend have valid points, depending on whether I believe God regularly talks to people or that God gave our species dominion over every species.

Or both.

Our subcultures are contradictory, by default.

And I, this set of states of energy, consider myself alive, which separates me from that which is not alive, whatever that means, because alive/unalive is a barrier not easily perceived in an ecosystem in which atoms mix and molecules reform constantly.

I am the Wondering Wanderer, the Wandering Wonderer, not here to convince others to align their thought patterns with mine or the trends I’ve computed.

I observe.  That’s who I am.

I see us, no matter where we are in cultural subsets, squarely in the middle of one subset or spread across many, and how we interact, which intuitively and computationally imply future moments of interaction we call trends.

Some trends I would like to see happen in my lifetime, some trends I know will happen but I wish they won’t, and some trends I hope happen regardless of the status of my set of states of energy as living or nonliving.

For instance, will a person sewing images in a gusset establish a trend of decorated gussets that spawns whole industries of underwear fashion and function?  And how will that affect international business relationships of the 2020s?

Will I return to stop referring to the words “politics” and “government,” letting them meld with the word “business,” as they should?

After all, government is just a business run on coercing, cajoling, encouraging a large group of people to jointly pay for services they want on large- and small-scale levels but wouldn’t normally pay for individually.  Kind of like business in general, n’est pas?

How to be a book author in 25 years or less

[Personal notes – feel free to skip]

Having written and published several books, a few that actually made me money, I enjoy reading about the lives of  authors/novelists, what motivates them and got them started.

Take this fellow, “Americana,” for instance.

Like so many others before him, he is discovering the joy of dropping out of the rat race.

Leisure time.

How many young people, not just including trust fund babies, have fostered a luxury of life without the noise and haste of mass media?

Can you think of a book you read that talked about getting away from it all?

Isn’t this idea an odd thought, that one has gotten out of the hustle and bustle of daily living only to return to the life by proxy through writing about it?

What about those who live the life but don’t write about it?

Look around you.  Do you live amongst those who aren’t spending their time constantly connected and checking their online community?

I look at me.  Most days, the majority of conversation I have with any beings takes place between my wife and me in the mornings and evenings, the rest of the day spent sitting here or feeding/petting the cats, if I’m not taking a walk in the woods or riding a bicycle along a local river trail.

Close this notebook computer and I’m virtually cut off from the rest of the world.

Just me and my books and cats warming my lap.

In other words, happiness.

I was like the writer, Steve Tuttle, not too long ago — in meetings, on the phone, checking emails, creating/modifying spreadsheets, traveling across the globe, on a constant lookout for the latest breaking news in state-of-the-art technological advances that would enhance or greatly disrupt the business models which increased my personal wealth.

Then one day it hit me.  I was no longer working for myself.  I was working for a system of beliefs which were not my own but were given to me to accept as my own through years of primary/secondary/postsecondary education.

I was not interested in buying ever more expensive cars, eating in more luxurious restaurants or negotiating bigger and bigger deals.

I was interested in nurturing me.

But at the same time, I was interested in eliminating the expanding personality of me.

By stepping out of the need to participate in the social network of our species, I have stepped into a zone where one can observe patterns and predict trends because most of us follow a script we wrote together as a society a long time ago, are rewriting every day, in fact.

Which reminds me, how do empty-nesters feel after their lives, which were so wrapped around raising their little chickadees, suddenly end when the chicks grow wings and fly away?  Is it freedom or torture or just sheer boredom?

Just 13959 days until an event occurs that is chronicled in this blog.

Reality is only seven letters.  Which seven letters do you want to be?

As a funhouse mirror, I reflect both the good and bad in us, trying to make us think about the seeds we’re planting today for the trends we’ll follow tomorrow.

For instance, is there a possible resurgence in ultraleftwingism, followers of a group similar to the Socialist Party of old, workers who no longer feel “loved” by the corporate owners/leaders that employ them and rake in a lot more money through legislative-friendly policies that border on the exploitative?

Or, will this, solving the good business generation gap, be the new trend?

Finally, are states starting to see the light and will remove more nonviolent criminals from the prison system?

I’m willing to look backward and forward to find the trends that make my life of participating in the online community worth perpetuating.

Otherwise, the repetition of repetition gets repetitive, creating/mashing up offensive and nonoffensive jokes/observations/storylines to fend off ennui, all in the simple hope that we’ll see through the repetition and make a concentrated effort where/when our species will be the one to establish a colony of sustainable Earth-based lifeforms out of this planetary system.

It doesn’t matter to me what the people look like who inhabit the offworld colony or even if they’re totally “human” in today’s sense of the world, including cyborgs who live amongst us.  The goal is the same: hedging our bets, taking one egg out of the basket and placing it in a surrogate nest as far away from Earth as possible.

Everything else is recycling Earth’s resources over and over, no matter how much fun or interesting it may be, including this blog, the books I’ve written and the retail establishments I visit (and have visited, for which I owe a debt of gratitude to pay with mentioning them here again soon).

And if we determine that a lifeform different than us, such as a simple one-celled organism, has a higher chance of survival, especially when we’ve searched a celestial body and found no lifeform that we may endanger with ours or any other we bring, then I’m willing to “plant” that organism in hopes that it will seed the solar system.

Call me a farmer whose field is this local area of the galaxy, hoping that in the current 200-million-year window of opportunity, we can hop, skip and jump our way, in one form or another, to the next safe agricultural zone.

In the meantime, there’s the matter of dark matter to resolve, a whole field, a vast tract of land, on which we haven’t broken ground yet.