I did not die in my sleep last night

Cicadas fly up off the ground into the trees, their iridescent wings little cathedral windows seeking refuge for mating.

Their lives what we call a series of stagecraft – pupils, largesse, and adultery, or something like that.

My youth spent studying botany and biology shrouded in decades of shredded adulthood.

A black-and-blue butterfly bakes in the sunlight.

Why do people want to find meaning in fulfilling prophecies of their predecessors?

Should a child’s unprotected ears be exposed to the unmuffled sounds of a lawnmower?

What value do you place in the future of your child’s life?

Do you judge your child’s future by referencing your childhood of the past?

Cicadas play bumper cars with the sunroom windows.

Their “singing” matches the rhythmic humming of my tinnitus.

I, like my ancestors and living relatives, am going deaf.

When space and time are bent, what is up?

Cicadas never stay in one stage long enough to need hearing aids.

They don’t need e-dating websites, temporary nests we call houses/flats/huts/tents, shopping malls or sports arenas.

Some days, I think our species has outlived its usefulness.

Some days, I’m thoroughly entertained by what my species calls progress.

“They want meaning or a purpose given by my royal edict?” she asked. “Let them eat cake! Unless citizens are true royalty, their only purpose is to serve me and my whims. No matter how ridiculous they look, my hats will find a ribald buyer with too much money. When reproduction is no longer their only goal, the people will fall for any ruse that’ll make me richer!”

When silence is no longer an option, what is up? Satire, of course.

To the enlightened childless hermit, it is the Only True Way.

The rest is trickery and tomfoolery disguising your simple need to perpetuate the species, an image I dimly see while going blind in thought as well as deaf.

Today, I serve myself, the only action I truly understand in perpetuating the false image of self.

The Invisible Hermit is just one more set of states of energy, after all.

Do flying cicadas eat before they sing, mate and die?

A Non-know-no-sense Day

A spider, similar to last year’s sunroom occupant, walks crablike across the ceiling.

Erin catches a catnap while the skylight points sunshine at a chair.

Gnostic is not the same as Coptic.

Caustic.

Satire spreads on headlines like warm corn syrup.

Public opinion rolls downhill like a Purple Cow onion, not dissimilar to Vidaliate.

The WRGS logo sails on mechanised carts.

Doctored photos don’t pass the Hypocritical Oath.

Haven’t seen an Eastern scorpion in the house recently.

A magic marker speck of a spider hangs five or six feet from the ceiling – what happened to the other two or three feet?

When you’re 93 and eating anything leads directly to incontinence, why eat?

How much of your labour credit or investment income do you spend on perpetuating family/sub/cultural myths?

Which sub/urban legends are vital to your beliefs?

Middle-age ennui. Tired of small talk.

Which is more important to you: your children’s education, your children’s health or optimally operational public sanitary sewers? You only get to choose one.

How do you identify yourself?

I’m out of here!

Doing nothing is more vitally important to me than talking to myself via chiclet keys today.

Nonunreaffirmed Reflection

The delayed launch of one of the last cruisers of the U.S. space shuttle fleet.

Test flight of a commercial suborbital rocket plane.

Russia serving the ISS.

China preparing for an occupied station.

The elite status of having flown 100-plus kilometers from the surface of our home planet.

Where is a safe place to build a space elevator or similar mass transit system?

How do we build confidence that nonviolent dissent is healthy for political change?

Will I live to see upper middle class passengers sail around the Moon?

How do we proactively prevent the creation of a loose network of violent criminals that diverts the equivalent of trillions of dollars of non dual use development to pursue and perpetuate them?

Can we tell when an entrenched system is no longer viable for the majority, let alone any minorities?

Happiness is a state of being, not a pursuit.

Can people see that nationalistic patriotism naturally compartmentalises sub/cultural populations?

Borders are memes, symbols, labels, artificial constructs of territorialism – the modern concept of personal property rights, like animals marking their mating/feeding grounds.

For us, space is essentially an infinite set of possible mating/feeding grounds.

Tentativeness is not the same as carefulness.

Complicated is not the same as confident efficiency.

A solar-powered string of lights saves on electricity.

What’s the cheapest and not necessarily the most reliable method for launching our personal single-cell organism coloniser payload to the Moon or Mars?

If the organism contains your trademarked DNA sequence, could you claim individual ownership of that area you colonised without local/global government permission?

Seek forgiveness later.

Start your profitable offworld business first and dare them to come after your staked claim, costing them a whole lot more to stop you than it cost you to turn a profit deposited in your orbiting satellite memory bank they can’t regulate from down here.

It’s not your fault if Earthers are too old-fashioned to process the solar system currency you invented for exclusive members of the 100-Plus Kilometer Club.

My nonviolent plan to take over the solar system is moving forward smoothly, thanks to the ready participation of seven billion people operating under the assumption this planet is divided into imaginary political boundaries used to excite them into frenzied temporary diversions, while I empty their pockets full of short-term earned money for my long-term domination of their and their offspring’s lives.

Can’t wait until the slowly terraforming portions of Mars and the Moon are under my complete control, with travelers paying my network large chunks of their disposable income to get away from Earth, on holiday and/or until they die.

Signature

Dots of white light reflect off domed water spotting tree leaves.

The hum of a heat pump and flapping of paper pinned to the wall indicate warm air flowing through ducted channels under the floor.

A minimalist going with the flow, following the past of least resistance for the simple pleasure of enjoying one’s thoughts.

A pair of thoughts – one’s carbon footprint and annual crop hectare usage – vie for attention.

Solar evacuated tubes give one a desire for relatively cheap “off the grid” independence, DIY, if necessary.

Then all one needs is a reliable source of water and food to claim freedom from social needs.

If that’s what one wants.

Economies of scale ignored for the fact of inexpensive, low disaster-prone land areas on which to live in many places around the world.

Quality of life more important than quantity/length of life.

Segue.

Having never received nor asked permission to live, one moves forward inch-by-inch, seeking balance in every moment rather than promising oneself there will always be a future moment to reconcile one’s brash actions in more youthful days.

Sad, but not depressed.

Begin.

Translating a blog into 16 languages not desired today.

Nobody knows who I am because I do not exist.

Free from agenda, one is and is not, free to stare at the woods with no movement except reaching to drink a cup of tea occasionally.

Purposeless.

Thoughtless.

Happy, but not exhilarated.

Almost absent of emotion altogether.

The perfect state.

Neither chased nor chasing, neither hurried nor held back.

Serenaded by a mechanical hum on a sunny day.

aum…zzz…amen

Orange background colour is a registered trademark

Woz is the wizard of Id…or is it, Superego?

Reminder to self: spend years planting ideas in spouse’s thoughts that a propane tank in the side yard is good insurance fueling gas-powered heat pump and oven/stove when electricity is unavailable in the unforeseeable future.

Memory helps.

Dual-use 3D maps – are you taking your government-backed project to the open market?

Lone Star Tick

Let’s leave testosterone and oestrogen out of this discussion, shall we?

There are ticks all over the yard.

They’s even a’crawlin’ across my new storage shed, afore I finished a’buildin’ the thing, too!

I’m a’gonna step away from fancy talk for a moment and get down to business.

Smellin’ the wind and tastin’ the rain earlier today, I was.

Nothin’ like a May flower rain shower to give this ol’ pilgrim a sense of what’s a’gonna happen next.

Seen a June bug crawlin’ on the driveway.

It’s another sign I reckon is a’tellin’ me what’s a’gonna happen next.

Thing is, I don’t rightly know if’n I otter tell you’ns.

A suburbanised country boy who’s a’fixin’ to tell you sump’n important to you but not to him.

Don’t feel right.

Don’t seem right.

Should I just keep muh big trap shut and let it happen anyway, you not really able to do much about it no hows?

It’s a modern feudal society, they tell me, but I don’t know what that means, do you?

I’m a Traveler, feedin’ off the land.  Watchin’ out for feller predators, I am.

There’s a sucker fish born every minute.

You want I should fix your roof or slap a coat of asphalt on your concrete driveway, gettin’ paid up front, of course?

I can charge it to your credit card so I ain’t the only one a’preyin’ on your financial predicaments.

I don’t barter none.  Cash or credit.

Meantime, there’s sump’n acrid on the wind, a cool breeze blowin’ in.

Ya know what that means, don’t ya?

Muh mindreader is here.  We’s a’gonna tell you’ns who’s been a’cheatin’ on whom.

A fancy set of wheels and shiny baubles on your fingers, wrists and neck are signs you been barterin’ for sump’n I reckon is worth tellin’ the world about, don’t you?

After all, there’s more in a pot of beans than water-soaked seeds!

Time to read some crawdad shells and see what this blackberry winter’s a’predictin’.

My skin’s a’crawlin’ – them tick bites’ a’itchin’ like nobody’s business.  Someone’s in trouble, that’s fer sure.

Best comment of the day

I bet Bin Laden regrets allowing his iPhone app to “use his current location”. — from Megan, under Yahoo comments.

Flush out the covey and watch the hunters take pot shots at the rest of the flock.

Anyone for guessing who the next official “Public Enemy No. 1” will be?  My inquiring mindful bookie wants to know.

Thanks to the anonymous neighbour and his son for checking to make sure my wife and I hadn’t succumbed to CO fumes pouring out of the generator that was running hours after we had power.

Time to read what my ants had built and see if this here future is all they say it’s gonna be – them wooly worms ain’t been as good a fortuneteller as my Crab Orchard neighbour promised me that night we finished off a jug of ol’ “mountain dew.”

Six-legged creatures are just as good, I reckon.

That’s all she wrote for this evenin’ – my bottle of muscadine wine has run its course through muh veins.

Night, y’all!

A Life Without Words

As my life’s end draws closer, I review my life through thoughts organised into symbol sets that many of my tiny species’ members could comprehend.

But the storm that reorganises life on this part of the planet cannot speak a word.

I cannot tell you what I know because what I know has no words.

Untranslatable.

And that’s too bad (“that” being the Internet which cannot express life in real terms, only limited communications in the forms our species is familiar with (and various species partially understand in their unique ways)).

My sister and I sense/see/speak without words. I believe that Monica and I did, too. Very few people have I encountered who’ve communicated with me in like manner.

The moments in between are dry deserts of abject loneliness.

Do i object?

It is the only life this body has known.

Comfortable in the relative silence of an atmospheric disturbance, a natural phenomenon as regular as a lifetime partner’s sleeping/breathing patterns.

All I’ll ever know. Silented SETI listening stations, religion-based persecution/discrimination, intelligence/military leadership swaps and child slavery the forgotten wallpaper of the life I share with you.

The invisible hermit returns to his home unpowered by nuclear technology…humless.

May take a few days to watch my species continue digging an early grave for the current civilisation before I write here again…

If I could simply/easily tell you how …

But it makes so little difference to the galaxy that it hardly seems worth explaining what you already know in your wordless thoughts.

“This, too, shall pass.”

A limb fell from a tree onto the front yard

On this planet, many activities in the moment.

I do not exist except in the moment.

I walk on well-paved thought trails today, not interested in pushing envelopes or developing new art states.

I cannot tell if anyone reads these words or if everyone who can read reads these words.

No storylines to perpetuate.

The happiness of silence will do.

A voice drowned out by the greenness of new leaves after a lot of water fell from the sky.

Numb.  Ignorant.

Existing with no timescale or socially-interactive technology advancement that matters.

Being, not doing.

One of seven billion will do.

Most of us are amateurs giving away advice and sharing opinions about the work of professionals.

I grew up worshipping warriors in the arena.  Who is now growing up worshipping women with advanced degrees in the workplace, warriors of the word rather than the sword?

I have no place in the modern world.

My time, my set of thoughts given to me by my sub/culture, is gone.

The cycle of life catches us all in its spokes.

We innocently flirtatious middle-aged men are fast becoming relics.

Time to sit back in my forest haven and watch the vines grow up around me, which feed off my breath while I feed off the labour of unseen hands.

The invisible hermit is in his element.

The imaginary sense of balance is settled.

My dream is alive.

Sic as ye gie, sic wull ye get.

May the best ye hae ivver seen be the warst ye’ll ivver see.
May the moose ne’er leave yer girnal wi a tear-drap in its ee.
May ye aye keep hail an hertie till ye’r auld eneuch tae dee.
May ye aye juist be sae happie as A wuss ye aye tae be.

The Scottish Emigrant’s Farewell

Fareweel, fareweel, my native hame,
Thy lanely glens and heath-clad mountains!
Fareweel thy fields o’ storied fame,
Thy leafy shaws and sparkling fountains.
Nae mair I’ll climb the Pentlands steep,
Nor wander by the Esk’s clear river;
I seek a hame far o’er the deep-
My native land, fareweel for ever!Thou land wi’ love and freedom crowned,
In ilk wee cot and lordly dwelling
May manly-hearted youth be found,
And maids in every grace excelling.
The land where Bruce and Wallace wight
For freedom fought in days o’ danger,
Ne’er crouched to proud usurping might,
But foremost stood, wrong’s stern avenger.

Though far frae thee, my native shore,
And tossed on life’s tempestuous ocean,
My heart-aye Scottish to the core-
Shall cling to thee wi’ warm devotion.
And while the waving Heather grows,
And onward rows the winding river,
The toast be “Scotland’s broomy knowes,
Her mountains, rocks, and glens forever!”

Meaning of unusual words:
shaws=flat piece of ground at the foot of a hill
ilk wee cot=every small cottage
wight=vigorously
broomy knowes=hillock clad in broom